move on

forget all the unhappiness, MOVE ON.

祸不单行

i only have a sentence to say:

My FRIDAYS are CURSED.

sometimes i wonder

sometimes i wonder if i was a serial killer in my past life that led to me leading such a living in this life

i guess i was a serial killer who does charity work every week

i really dunno what i did to deserve this kind of drama happening to me

i guess no one will actually believe what i said or would actually believe that i grew up in this kind of family, with this kind of family members

i tot, i really tot, life was beginning to get better

but it turned worse

i live in this constant fear, not knowing what will happen to my family tomorrow

will they go out and get themselves into trouble under the influence of alcohol again?

will they safe and sound?

when will they ever grow up (not physically, but mentally) and start to think about their lives?

do they ever spare any thoughts for me?

did they ever thought of how i feel?

or rather, did they ever care about how i feel?

i know i have no choice as to who is my family

and i am also actually beginning to accept the fact/fate that i AM in this family

and that this IS my family

and that i surely LOVE my family

but why can't all the trouble just leave my family ALONE?

i am really sick and tired of all these

now, i am faced with a problem that no one even he himself can solve, i dont know what can be done to rectify this

it is not within my means to rectify it

if there is a solution to the problem

i guess things wont turn into this state

now i know,

money is not the solution to everything

but things/problems can be made simpler with money

perhaps money can reduce the effects/consequences of the said problem

and perhaps authority can help too

but what can u do when u have none of the money and authority?

does it mean everything has to come to an end?

what is an end?

who calls it an end?

does running away helps?

does MIA helps?

have u thought of the consequences that others have to bear when u go MIA?

oh my

i cant seem to finish this post if i go on like this

i have to stop.

PRAY FOR ME.

I NEEDS LOTSA FAITH.

SUPER DUPER BUSY

i cant rmb the last time i was so so busy

and i also couldnt rmb the last time i so much wanted to do well in a module.

maybe that's my first, and thus, my enthusiasm.

2 projects + 1 written exam.

all within 5 weeks.

WTH.

minus 1 week cos i will be away in taiwan.

but i will bring my laptop along.

cos need to finish my projects that are due on 20 n 22 oct.

and i will be traveling from 14-20 oct.

tts not very nice.

hey guys, dun miss me too much

i will be more human come end nov.

till then, love ya.

BACK TO SCHOOL

its been a crazy crazy week(s) for me....

i finally started my school.

every tue and thu, 19-22hrs.

for the 1st 2 lectures, i reached home ard 12midnight.

i cant imagine myself doing this for another 1.5 yrs.

but i guess i just have to endure it. cos i really cant afford cabbing back from clementi twice a week.

work is getting more n more hectic and the school is also taking its toll on me.

i wonder how long more can i sustain.

this is just the beginning!!

1st lecture: GROUP PROJECT - INTEGRATED TV/PRINT/RADIO/INTERNET CAMPAIGN (DUE:20 OCT)

2nd lecure: SOLO PROJECT - 20 page STRATEGIC COMMUNICATIONS PLAN
(DUE:22 OCT)

how irritating can projects be? esp. when i will be out of town from 14-20 Oct. This leaves me with less than 3 weeks to complete the above.

I have been brainstorming for my solo project idea since thur (or should i say the moment the lecturer announced the assignment?) and after 48 hours, i am still in the process of brainstorming. I just couldn't decide on a topic!!!!

god bless me. i need to decide on a topic by tonight so that i can start working on it! in jesus name i pray, AMEN.

here i am on a saturday night, poo-ing out all my complaints (at the same time brainstorming for project ideas).

i am slowing visioning myself becoming a no-life person. NOOOOOOO!!!!!!

NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!
NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!
NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!
NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!
NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!
NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!
NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!NOOOOOOO!!!!!!

五月天-突然好想你

作曲:阿信
填词:阿信

最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆突然翻滚 绞痛着不平息

最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音

不愿那是悲伤的哭泣

事到如今

终於让自已属於我自已

只剩眼泪还骗不过自己



突然好想你

你会在哪里

过的快乐或委屈

突然好想你

突然锋利的回忆

突然模糊的眼睛


我们像一首最美丽的歌曲

变成两部悲伤的电影

为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行

然后留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜那麽美

那麽相信

那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经

为何我们

还是要奔向各自的幸福

和遗憾中老去



突然好想你

你会在哪里

过的快乐或委屈

突然好想你

突然锋利的回忆

突然模糊的眼睛



最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆突然翻滚

绞痛着不平息

最怕突然听到你的消息

最怕此生已经决定自己过

没有你却又突然

听到你的消息

开始懂了

曲:李偲菘
词:姚若龙

我竟然没有调头

最残忍那一刻

静静看你走

一点都不像我


原来人会变得温柔

是透澈的懂了

爱情是流动的

不由人的

何必激动着要理由


相信你只是怕伤害我

不是骗我

很爱过谁会舍得

把我的梦摇醒了

宣布幸福不会来了

用心酸微笑去原谅了

也翻越了

有昨天还是好的

但明天是自己的

开始懂了

快乐是选择